i did something stupid to my best friend

so i got this thing about how all the cool kids at school are hanging out and making plans without me. it's not like they're mean, but every time i see them on instagram or facebook it feels like everyone is having fun while i'm sitting home watching netflix. so yeah, i started to think that maybe my best friend jess was part of this clique too even though she's always been really chill and down-to-earth. one day i catch her posting a pic with all these people from school that are considered the 'in crowd'. i'm like whoa hold up, is jess actually friends with these folks? so i start digging through her phone when she goes to lunch, looking for any proof that maybe she's been keeping secrets from me. it was dumb, i know, but part of me wanted to see if i had a reason to be suspicious. i found nothing super incriminating, just some group chats and invites to parties where i wasn't invited. honestly, most of the stuff was boring like planning study groups or making plans for weekend activities. still, i couldn't shake this feeling that she might not be my best friend anymore and that i had a right to know what's going on behind my back. when jess got back from lunch, i acted cool but felt so guilty about snooping around her stuff. now we don't talk as much because every time we're together i feel like the spy from all those bad 90s movies where they show how far a friend would go to find out what's happening in another person's life.