i let my parents down

my big sister has always been this perfect role model and i know they love her so much. she gets good grades, is on all the sports teams, and just seems to make friends everywhere. meanwhile im like the middle kid, i try but its hard because shes just so amazing and everything. anyway ive been kinda struggling at school lately, not doing my homework and such. i told myself it would be okay for a little while longer until i could catch up, but as you can imagine that only made things worse. one day we were having dinner and mom asked how school was going, she seemed to expect me to say great like big sis does all the time. instead i burst out crying and confessed everything. my parents were shocked and kinda disappointed, they had no idea what was going on in my head or why i felt this way about sister. after that we talked more and tried to figure it out, but deep down i still feel guilty for not being as great as sis makes me look like im supposed to be.