When Coffee Turns Into Butterflies

So here’s the thing, I’ve had this ridiculous crush on one of our regular customers for months now, and it's really starting to take over my life... His name is Alex, and every time he comes in with his laptop or just looking for a quiet spot to read, I find myself distracted. My hands get shaky trying to make the perfect latte because I’m so worried about spilling on him... We've exchanged pleasantries before; small talk mostly. But inside my head it’s like every interaction is amplified tenfold, it's as though all I can see are his blue eyes and that smile... Whenever he asks for an iced coffee, I find myself fiddling with the ice bucket or adding an extra splash of syrup because I'm not sure why but something about him makes me jittery... It’s embarrassing how much this has affected my work. Lately, even when he's not there, I can feel a knot in my stomach and wonder if today will be one of those days where I might see him... And yet, it feels impossible to act normal around him despite all the times we've interacted. Maybe one day I’ll find the courage to actually talk to him like a real person instead of this nervous wreck who can only manage small talk... For now though, my heart races every time he walks through our door. It’s going to be hard keeping it up like this forever but maybe someday things will change and we won’t just pass each other in coffee lines anymore...