just feeling old

sometimes i feel like my youth is slipping away faster than i can catch up. i was hanging out with some friends last night, and it felt so weird because we talked about stuff that feels ages ago. we used to stay up all night talking about dreams and crushes and life plans, but now everyone's just focused on jobs and houses and family. don't get me wrong, i'm happy for them, but sometimes i wonder if i'll ever be in a place where those other things matter less. it makes me sad, cause i feel like i should be past all that too, you know? but instead of feeling grown-up and settled, i just feel lost.