I'm Addicted to My Professor's Lectures ... Even When I Don't Need Them Anymore

So... here's the thing. I know it sounds a bit silly, but ever since my first semester of grad school, I've been completely hooked on attending Dr. Lee's lectures even though he's no longer one of my professors and hasn't been for a few semesters now... It started with his fascinating insights into theoretical physics, which were way beyond anything we covered in class back then... Over time, it just turned into this weird ritual where I'd sit at the very front row and take copious notes as if I still needed to pass a final exam or something... But honestly, I'm not even sure what compels me to go anymore. It's more like some strange mix of nostalgia for those early days of learning new things and maybe just the habit sticking around... Anyway, it’s kind of embarrassing that I've been doing this so long without anyone really knowing about it except me... And here I am telling the world in a confession... Oh well.