I've Started Painting But I'm Terrible

Ever since my retirement last month, I've been looking for a hobby to keep me busy. After much deliberation, I decided to try painting, thinking it might be relaxing and therapeutic. However, after days of trying, all I’ve managed are sloppily painted canvases that look like abstract representations of anxiety rather than anything aesthetically pleasing. I’ve even considered hiding them away or repurposing the canvas for something else. But part of me wants to stick with it despite the mounting frustration and doubt.