My White Lie

I've been telling my doctor I exercise regularly when in reality, I only manage to do it every now and then. It started off as a little fib to make myself feel better about not living up to my goals, but the more I said it, the harder it became to admit the truth to him. I can almost hear his disappointed sigh over the phone each time we discuss it, which makes me even more conflicted. But at this point, I’m so used to saying it that I find myself lying to others too. It’s like a habit I don’t want to break because admitting my inconsistency feels worse than fibbing.