secret crush

so i have this huge secret crush on jan from math class and its been like that for ages but yesterday she sat next to me in lunch and actually talked to me omg i wanted to die from how nervous i got. i blabbed about all sorts of random stuff we had nothing important to say really lol but it was so good just talking with her! now everyone is going on this trip next weekend and im kinda praying shes coming too because i wanna see her again even if were just hanging out as friends which would be fine rn like honestly its killing me how much i hope to catch a glimpse of her there or whatever. maybe she likes me back? no way probably not but a girl can dream right?