My Secret Anxiety...

I've always been the life of the party... or at least I try to be. But lately, I've been hiding something big from everyone... a paralyzing anxiety that hits me out of nowhere. It's funny how you can look so put together on the outside and feel like you're falling apart inside... Last week, my best friend invited us all to a rooftop dinner... I couldn't bring myself to go up there... It was too high for me... The thought of being trapped at such an elevation just terrified me... But I didn't tell anyone... Instead, I made some lame excuse about having to work late... I've been doing this more and more lately... Hiding my fear behind a smile and small talk... It's exhausting... I wish I could be the adventurous person others think I am...