My Office's Secret Lunch Treat Supplier

I've been working at this company for over a decade now. I know most everyone here and they probably all think of me as reliable and, well, kind of boring. I have my routines: the usual morning meetings, weekly presentations, you name it. But there’s one thing that makes people smile around lunchtime that I never thought would be associated with me until recently. I started this little tradition almost three years ago, after overhearing some coworkers talking about how they wished someone would bring in a little something special for the group to enjoy during their midday break. The first time, it was just a few packs of gourmet cookies I found at a local bakery on sale. It felt spontaneous and fun, I wasn't sure anyone would notice or care. But here we are now, every Friday without fail, I head over to that same little bakery around 9 AM sharp. They know me there by name now; it's like clockwork. I keep the treats in a small cooler bag under my desk until lunchtime when they mysteriously appear for everyone. It’s funny because no one knows who brings them, but somehow all eyes are on me as if I’m doing something wrong. I’ve been doing this out of my own pocket, and it adds up to quite the expense. But seeing people's faces light up each Friday? That’s priceless. The problem is, my financial planner would have a fit if she knew about these indulgences. They go against every penny-pinching principle I've lived by since the Great Recession. So here I am, in my mid-40s, maintaining this little charade of generosity at work while secretly harboring what might be seen as frivolous spending habits. It’s a small act that keeps everyone happy, but it’s eating away at my sense of fiscal responsibility. What's the real cost of bringing joy to others?