...My Messy Break-up Blame Game...

Hey folks, I've been wrestling with this for weeks now, and I think it's time to own up. So here goes nothing (or maybe everything? )... So, me and my ex were in a long-term relationship that hit some rough patches over the past few months. I'd say we both had our issues, but I think there was just too much distance between us by then. Anyway, last week it finally ended... not pretty. My partner (let's call them Theo) decided they wanted to take things slow and see other people, which made me feel like a real asshole. But the thing is, I didn't want to do that either! Theo had been the one pushing for more time apart before. So why was it okay this time? It felt so unfair. And now we're both mad at each other for different reasons... So, yeah... I kinda acted out a bit after we broke up. I went on a few dates and tried to make Theo jealous (I know, super childish of me). But the truth is, it was more about making myself feel better than anything else. I mean, it's not like I wanted Theo back in that way anymore... just maybe needed some proof they were overthinking too... Anyway, here we are now: exes who still want a little fight out of each other before calling it quits for real. It's ridiculous really... but somehow it makes me feel less sad about the whole thing. Like I'm not letting Theo off easy or whatever. So yeah, that's my story. Not proud of it exactly, but kinda glad I let myself get a little crazy while we were still apart (just for a little while though). Maybe when the dust settles on all this messiness, things will be clearer... ...