My Colleague’s Smile Stops Me Dead

Ever since I joined this company three years ago, my colleague Jane has been the one who always seems to have the perfect answer. She’s not just smart; she's kind and approachable. It’s funny how our eyes will meet across a crowded conference room, and it feels like no one else is there but us. But here’s the kicker: whenever she smiles at me, even if we’re discussing work, I feel like an awkward teenager again. My voice shakes slightly when talking to her, and I find myself avoiding spontaneous interactions that might lead to prolonged eye contact or conversation. Lately, I’ve been thinking about confessing my feelings, but what would be the point? I’m nearly twice her age with a family of my own back at home. Does anyone else experience this odd mix of admiration and nervousness towards someone they consider far too young for them? Should I just chalk it up as one of those quirks that comes with aging or is there something more to it?