...Trying to Fit In...

I just moved to this new city for work, and it's like starting over. Every day feels overwhelming, but last night I really let my guard down. I went to a community event at the local park thinking it would be a good way to meet people. Instead of striking up conversations with everyone, I found myself sitting on a bench alone, watching others laugh and socialize around me... What did I think was going to happen? That I'd walk in and suddenly feel like part of a new family? Maybe if I could somehow just press rewind and erase that moment of insecurity, I might actually start feeling better about everything. But here I am, stuck wondering why it's so hard for me to break the ice... maybe everyone else is feeling as awkward as I do too, but they're hiding it better than me...