A Day Off I Couldn't Enjoy

I remember last Friday like it was yesterday. I had called in sick because I needed a break from the hospital ward where I work as a nurse. I just couldn't face another day of long hours and stressed-out patients. But when I finally managed to take time off, I woke up feeling guilty for not being there for my patients. By evening, I was scrolling through medical journals on my phone, missing the rush of adrenaline from those hectic days. It's hard to believe that taking a break can leave me with such conflicting feelings. Here I am, wishing for less stress but also craving the sense of purpose and connection I find in caring for others.