I'm Jealous of My Brother's College Life

So, I'm the youngest in my family and always have been. My older brother just started college a few weeks ago, and he’s having such an amazing time, parties, new friends, exploring campus life. It sounds like everything I’ve ever wanted since I was 15 years old. But here I am, stuck at home with no idea when or if I’ll go to college myself. He texts me stories of his adventures almost every day and posts pictures on social media, and I can’t help but feel a bit jealous and left out. It’s not like I hate him for enjoying himself, I’m happy for him in so many ways. But there's this nagging sadness that sneaks up when he goes to sleep at 3 AM after a night of fun while I’m just starting to do my homework at midnight. Maybe it's more about the uncertainty of what’s ahead for me, but seeing how much he's enjoying college just makes me feel like time is slipping away from me too.